Why I believe bitcoin will reach 10 trillion

Edit: i change my mind

Bitcoin isn't dead. I think. Maybe. I am not sure anymore.

I keep telling myself that. Every day. Every time I open the chart and see the red. I say it out loud. Bitcoin isn't dead. But my voice shakes a little. I do not know why I keep saying it. Maybe if I say it enough times it will become true. Or maybe I am just trying to convince myself. I cannot tell the difference anymore.

I have been holding for years. Or months. I actually do not remember anymore. Time moves differently when you are staring at a number that keeps going down. I check my portfolio in the morning. I check it at night. I check it in the middle of my sleep when I wake up in cold sweat. It is always lower. But I tell myself it is fine. It is fine. It is fine. I am fine.

I read articles every day. Some say Bitcoin is dead. Some say it will rise again. I believe both. I believe neither. I read them all and I feel nothing except confusion and a dull ache behind my eyes. Maybe I should stop reading. But I cannot. I need to know. Even though knowing does not help.

I have not sold. That is something. That is what I tell myself. I have not sold so I am still strong. But sometimes I wonder if strength is just another word for being too scared to move. I do not know. I do not know anything anymore.

I still believe in Bitcoin. I think. I believe. I want to believe. But there is a voice in my head that says maybe I am wrong. Maybe everyone else is right. Maybe I am just holding onto nothing. I push that voice away but it always comes back.

If you are reading this and you feel the same way, I do not have advice. I have nothing except this small, tired hope that refuses to die. Maybe I should take medication. Maybe I should sell. Maybe I should just close my eyes and stop thinking.

But I will not sell. Not today. Not yet. I will hold. I will wait. I will keep saying Bitcoin is not dead. Even if I do not believe it. Even if I believe it too much.

I do not know which one is worse.